My fairy tale ended

If you're reading this, then probably I was unable to graduate. Worry not for me, because I can give a truckload of reasons not to. But among those, is that, I am completely fine. I may still get randomly sad or teary-eyed, sadness is part of the whole hullabaloo afterall. But at the end of the day, I am okay, will be doing better. Don't worry!

A month ago, I never imagined that this will be the life I am having right now or just the very fact that I'll be able to write this blog post right here. As you know, when the academic year 2017-2018 started, I was a hopeful candidate for graduation. But then, my natural skill of incompetence took over, and here I am now, writing a post why I failed.

LOW SELF-ESTEEM
This might be the reason why I rarely care about other people's opinion about me, it's because before their comments affect me, I am already punishing myself with all the self-criticsm. Don't worry, I'm not that harsh, it's just that, whenever things don't go in my favor, I immediately doubt myself. The "maybe this is not for me", and the "what am I even good at?" This may also be the reason why I like giving advice to others? Hmmm. Maybe?

WHAT AM I EVEN GOOD AT?
TBH, this might be one of my constant worries. I will always be a mediocre. Meh. I'll figure it out... eventually... hopefully.

PROCRASTINATION 
I almost always find an excuse to delay doing things that needs to be done. Example, that assignment. Ha! Hahaha. huhuhu. Yeah, I was on my 5th year and yet I haven't figured out the whole studying thing. I knowww, it may seem like I study a lot. But I honestly don't. I almost always find other things to do other than studying. Sorry about that!

With that, I am writing this hoping that a change will follow. Like a "yaaahh!! your fairy tale ended already, wake up gorl!" Okay, I think I need to explain about the fairy tale part. You see, after all the previous heartaches that dear law school caused, I thought I'll be able to get my happy ending. But then, I was unable to. So, goodbye sugar coating, here's a kimchi slap for you,  dear self, we need to get some work done ASAP!

Okay, my fairy tale ended. I just woke up and reality is calling me, time to step up.
*insert EXO's Power, coz upbeat and EXO*