Sunday, December 31, 2017

Gapang to 2018

Parang panaginip, dumating at umalis ang taong 2017 ng mabilis. Tulad ng climate change, kay hirap din tanggapin ang pangkasalukuyang estado ng pamahalaan dahil sa iba't-ibang makamundong nais at ganid ng mga taong nakapalibot dito. Sa huli, ang lipunang naghihikahos - ang naghihirap at sumasalo ng lahat ng ito. Sa personal na aspeto ay mas nasasanay na lamang akong tanggapin ang bawat sampal ng realidad sa bawat ilusyong aking tinatangkang likhain sa aking isipan, upang harapin ang bawat umaga* na parating. Habang nag-aalab ang aking puso at nagsusumiklob ang aking damdamin upang mapukaw ang isang matamis na buhay at nang ang inaatim na pagbabago ay makamtam sa paraang di nagdadanak ng dahas o alin mang sakripisyo na kikitil sa buhay ng tao, unti-unti naman yinuyurakan ang aking mga personal na hangarin dahil sa sistemang balot sa pang-aalipusta at kalapastanganan.

Ay blog. Wait. Pause. *jesohamnida*

YEOROBUN, ANNYEONGHASSEYEO!
(hello, everyone)

Remember when last year's year end blog ended with a me saying that my theme song for 2017 will be The Mountain Goats's This Year? Well, true to my word, I made it to the end of 2017, even if it killed me numerous times. But hey, I MADE IT THROUGH THIS YEAR and so did you, jinja daebak (really awesome)!

And so here I am again, writing another post, telling you my story, earnestly hoping it will make sense.

*insert deep bow with dramatic sound effects*  

WISDOM TOOTH-LESS
I am now out of wisdom (and wisdom) tooth as I had them removed through surgery last June. Tito doc said that in due time, I'll be free from braces as well. I'm not sure of when exactly it will be, but we're getting there! Last 2016, I've also had two of them removed, while this year, the remaining two were also removed. So ayun, wala na.

NEW GLASSES
Ah, my left eye decided to keep up with my right eye, both are now with 225, 275 grade, plus astigmatism. Great! Ha! *insert kakakompyuter mo line here* Can my school grades keep up as well? But I got new glasses as well, so, there's that.

COLDPLAY
Because the separate blogpost, profile pictures, album, et. al. were not enough. Here am I again, raving about it! Last April 4, I was finally able to see Coldplay live with my chingu Abby. The concert venue and price were not exactly the best. The price was not actually favorable to the maralitang fangirl like us, though tickets were sold fast. Others still opted to catch the concert elsewhere because of the expense (different country but better concert venue location and stage). But Coldplay made it all worth it, and that's all that matters. I can still imagine it as if it was just yesterday, and the kilig from their performance still leaves me breathless. Awow.

FAILED A SUBJECT
And so I thought everything will be fine, but then it did not. HAHAHA. I am now enrolled in this third year subject as an undertaking. Will I do better? Hopefully. Will I pass this time? Hopefully. I'll make sure that I'll pass it this time.

SCHOOL IN GENERAL
I had started the year with a regular full load of subjects. I was happy but it is crazy! Cramming here and there, not knowing what the coverage will be for a subject. I barely managed to get out of my pseudo-third year. Now, here I am, again with the regular full load, plus additional units for the subject I failed. Most of my subjects are now review subjects, and it feels like everything I've learned over the past years have gone missing. Like I'm starting all over again.

Yes, I am now 24 years old and is still a student. If my parents, who pays for my everything can deal with, so can you.

COMMUNICATING WITH CLIENTS
For this school year, I was lucky enough to be part of the school's Legal Aid Office. I must say that in the one semester, I've learned a lot. I am excited to see what the new semester will bring to my group, but more than anything, I hope we can make our clients happy by applying what we've learned in school.

FOOD
2017 was filled with lots of unlimited samgyeopsal. Also fell in love with Sushi Ninja. With all the stress that comes along my way, I deserve all the good food I've had. HAHAHA.

ME TIME
Ah! I think writing this defeats the purpose, but I am actually enjoying my me time. Sure, when my hands are already purple and numb from carrying the groceries or bags that I've holding, it surely is nice to have someone else to do it for me, but then, that's what the ever reliable Uber/Grab comes. Ahhh! What a game changer! But I've also done lots of public transportation this year, the Jassy from 2010 is proud.

No, you shut up. Are you trying to judge me for not having someone to do something with? But have you tried doing it alone??? Not yet? So shut up! Ahh, but I depend on Uber/Grab to go to places? It's because I can.

Catching the last movie screening of a movie is also one of the best thing that I've done alone. Ahhh, not having to worry about anything (except my class for the next day). It's so much fun!

FRIENDS
I am beyond grateful for having friends outside school, people who I can talk to and realize how long will I have to wait before I can experience the life outside school. Because of how far and stressful the travel from south is, I would like to fervently thank the friends I've hypnotized on visiting me, you guys are the reason why I believe a true friend exists.

But surely, the friends from school are the best people I have in my life right now. People who go through the same battle as me, the same stress, the same everything! I love you all equally, I will be eternally loyal to the time, commitment, and love you've extended to me. Special shout out to the friends I've met this year, you guys are the real heroes that deserve all the rainbows and marshmallows and all that good stuff. I am happy to have you all in my life.

KOREAN SKINCARE
Unlike my ahjumma chingu (Si Abigail ito hahaha), I am more reluctant on buying things because of how pricey they are, hence, the "research". But once I've start to become really curious about a product, I'll make sure to get one. It still depends on the price and availability tho. Hehehe. Speaking of Korea...

DO KYUNGSOO
Oh where to begin? I've seen a lot of Korean dramas. And this time? I've fallen in love (again). Kyungsoo's such an adorable actor. Yung he looks reallly cute and bubbly, but when he starts acting, bam! Murder! HAHAHA. More than that, he sings well too! With his speaking and singing voice, I can listen to it all day, everyday, 24/7. Which leads to...

EXO
OH MY FREAKING GOD! I cannot believe that I'll be a KPOP trash. Sure, fourth year high school was the time for Wonder Girls's Tell Me and Super Junior's Sorry, Sorry. But never have I imagined being a hardcore fan at this point of my life. They bring me joy. The only thing that makes sense. And makes me poor with every merch that they sell. Patay!

PENGUINS
I am so close to adopting a penguin. So so close. WHY PENGUINS? Just look at Kyungsoo. Now look at a penguin. Similarities? Iknow!!


Surely, the year 2017 was emotionally and mentally draining, that no amount of curse words are enough to express everything, but my 2018 will be much worse (kindly include in your prayers, "Jassy's sanity," thanks). However, I am excited to what 2018 will be. May both of us never stop dreaming and fighting our battles.

To more good food and drinks, and lots of PENGUIN, EXO, and KYUNGSOO in between. I wish that may we both eat well and be healthy for 2018. HAPPY NEW YEAR! And my battle cry? Sugod Gapang!!!

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