In an alternate universe.

This again is for you. I know you've been away for awhile. Well, both of us have been distant. You've moved closer but rather, it feels like you're a million miles away. I saw K at the bookstore awhile ago. She said you're back on your nightmares; that you've been keeping them awake every now and then. Screaming the same painful thing over and over. Waking up in the middle of the night soaking with your own sweat. 

Few years back we made a deal. A pledge. That I will help you. That we will go through this together. But a few months ago, you asked me to stop showing. To stop caring. 

The accident was never your fault. But it seems like that more we remind you, the more you rather think otherwise. 

I made myself clear, that I will be waiting for you my dear. 

I miss seeing your radiant smile. I miss your blue eyes wrinkling everytime you smile. I miss watching the sunrise with you. I miss holding your soft hands. I miss your piercing jaw and the way you grow your beard short just to leave something scruffy behind. I miss having our long walks. I miss reading books with you. I miss binge watching with you. I miss you. But most of all, I miss us. 

Here I end with my love ever yearning and longing for you. My dear, please.. .