Good, bye?

Ah eh kapag tinamaan ka nga naman ng lintek. You're different, kaya I don't understand where this excess feelings are coming from. Remnants from the past Korean Drama I've watched? Baka. Sana! But on those days that I felt blue, you made things fine. Not better, just fine. An okay, like a tolerable day kumbaga. Right now, you're literally and figuratively, miles away. Away - where hearing from you is impossible, like you're in a deep dark black hole where ordinary humanoid like me won't be able to reach (for now).

You've kept your distance. Ang layo mo na talaga ngayon. As in, and I have no plans on reaching out. And I am hoping that I won't, ever, again. I hope that I can wish you well, but I'm not ready for that yet - may you also have shitty days like mine, but a rainbow - always - after the rain. You now belong in my past, where I wish no amount of (human and artificial) intelligence may enable me to travel back in time just to see how you are. But it's not your choice that you're so far away, it is only now that reality kicked in and made me realize that after all, it's been me who have been traveling the distance just to share a moment with you. Baka lang I got tired. It's been one way after all, and right now, I am just tired.

Kaso, in reality, you're from a distant future talaga. A few lightyears ahead of me. I am genuinely wishing that someday, we'll cross paths and act as if we've known each other for quite sometime and share stories of how we ended up where we are right now. Ala Lord Voldemort na, Tom Marvolo is my past, present, and future - you, my dear, is the guy who must not (and never) shall be named.

If some magic enables you to come across this, (awkward) hi phowszx! This is prolly not for you, so, don't assume! If you insist that this is for you, well, I just wanted you to know that I had fun. Thank you for visiting me. (If you're confused about time, aba'y you're in the wrong post, cause time is just a  big ball of wibbly-wobbly, timey-wimey, stuff). I am not setting you free because you were never mine to begin with, kaya here I am, actually setting myself free from you. A few years* are sufficient enough for me to get really sad, annoyed, angry, and bonkers over you. Hindi na healthy para sa well-being ko.

I hope someday, I'll find someone who finds all my quirks and existence appealing. I know that person also exists in the future or baka busy siya with promoting their comeback album right now, and yes, I have't met you yet - the guy who will overpower me. So right now, I just wanted to say good-bye, for good.