Chripy chirp chirp: January 9, 2017

As the new year starts, along with it came the start of a new semester. The fear of an extension is still haunting my very existence. Nothing in life (especially in law school) is certain, as such, there's only the opportunity to improve oneself so as to avoid something way worse.

Each day is a struggle. A constant reminder of how lucky and undeserving I am, of how worthless I may seem, at times. As I earnestly say my prayers and pleas to be spared from public humiliation, I still wonder if this is how I would want to remember my days.

To say that I'll do better next time, it is the execution part where I always fail. The mind is willing but the body is weak. There seems to be an endless number of things far more important than to what I am ought to do.

I should either be writing or sleeping, and yet, here I am - rambling. The fears are always there, the worries, the anxieties, I wonder when will I ever learn?