In front of you

There's nothing I can do but hope.

God knows how much I am willing
to do anything
and everything
but sometimes,
the willingness
does not really justify
how much I wanted it to happen.

You came at the most unexpected time.
A time
when I'm not yet able
to grasp the reality
of whatever this is
and yet,
you made me feel
like everything is going to be fine.

I'm fine,
that's what I say.
Behind this
big,
black
eyes,
you know it's all a lie.

You're the reason why -
I can't even remember.

You truly are
something.

Always
a constant reminder.
Always
a complication.
Always
and forever.

Please consider that I
am willing to wait
much longer.
I can't even argue
that you've been
there -